Kanze Dena breaks down as she narrates the loss of her first born

By William Osoro | 6yrs ago | 2 min read

Beatrice Kanze Dena has opened up about the pain of losing her first born daughter Natasha.

Speaking to Maisha Magic’s Story Yangu segment, Dena revealed that she was working as a waitress when she got pregnant.

“Nilikuwa nachonga viazi vya chips, halafu sasa nikavuka counter kufanya kazi ya waiter” laughed Dena.

However, her boyfriend took to his heels soon after getting her pregnant. “When I got pregnant, he ran away and I was left alone” she narrated.

Dena kept the pregnancy a secret and her mother only knew about the child after it was born.

After giving birth to Natasha, Dena wanted to give the baby out for adoption but her mum convinced her not to. Natasha went to stay with her grandmother in Mombasa as Dena resumed her Media studies in Nairobi.

“I was allowed to go back to college and sit for my final exams. After the exams I went to stay with my Aunt, while doing some hustle here and there.”

Three months after baby Natasha’s birth, Dena’s aunt informed her that she needs to travel home urgently.

Upon her arrival, she found a large crowd gathered at her home. “Nikashangaa ni nini. Hisia zangu zikaniambia nikimbie ndani ya nyumba nione kunaendelea nini” an emotional Dena stated.

Upon entering the house, Dena found her baby lying on the bed with a smile on her face. “Nilidhani amelala”, said Dena amid sobs.

She was informed that baby Natasha had passed away the previous night but had not shown any signs of illness.

“I began questioning God why he had prevented me from giving up the baby for adoption only to take her away from me,” stated Kanze Dena as tears rolled down her cheeks. The incident broke her so much and she plunged into depression. “It made me feel like God was punishing me.”