Stuck with a HIV positive spouse

I’m married and have a five-year-old son. My husband is HIV positive, but through Gods grace, we are a discordant couple. The problem is that he is living in denial. He will not go for counselling no matter how hard I try to get him to go and he has refused to take any doctor’s advice. I try my best to be good to him even though he does not appreciate it and sometimes he becomes violent towards me. Sometime ago he developed genital herpes after which we stopped having sex for a while — our sex is always protected. Since then he cannot rise to the occasion when it comes to sex. Many times I have considered leaving him and starting out afresh, but I’m jobless and I come from a humble background. Going back to my parent’s home would be too much of a burden to them. I’m depressed and need help on what to do about this situation.

{Susan}